Just checking in to report that I feel physically fine, just tired.  Absolutely zero issues beyond fatigue.  No cramps, no bloating, no sore bbs, no pulling in the abdomen, no flutters or whatever.  Nada.  And for the record, the fatigue is my normal reaction to Progesterone, so that’s no shocker.

What I DO have is copious amounts of discharge from the Endometrin.  Lovely, eh?  But I would still rather have that than two weeks worth of PIO injections.  I try to be diligent that the doses happen every 8 hours and they usually do, give or take 30 minutes or so.  Either way, I end up with enough chalk in my drawers to fill the desks of a whole class of Algebra students.

I’m feeling so emotional this cycle.  I wish I could just shut off my mind.  Sitting here at my desk all day at work does me no favors.  It’s really slow right now and I have TONS of time to just think.  Like a captive audience.  I just wish I could go out and distract myself somehow. I wish I could talk to my girls about all this, but they are in such different places it just ends up being me emotionally vomiting all over them.  Who wants that?  And what would that accomplish anyway?  Just me getting myself worked up again and them playing diligent listener.  What good does that do?  There isn’t much new ground to break here.

Besides, I’m so edgy that it would take one “just adopt” comment to send me careening over the edge of grace.

Basically, I’m this:

When I should really be this:

“SERENITY NOW!

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