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blocked-tubes

Ok, that HSG I had on Wednesday…well, it sucked.  I have TWO blocked tubes now from the looks of it.  Or as the Doctor on call put it “bad for you, but fascinating to see.”  Well, thanks Doc…normally I can feel that bad all by myself- I don’t need any help.  I completely broke down to Chris after the procedure was over, like some awful Lifetime made for TV movie.  It it amazing how something like that can take it out of you after three years of trying.  So now we wait for our follow up with Dr. C on April 8th.

What is there to say?  My sobfest was just further proof that this has consumed me emotionally and I have to smack myself daily to not sink into a goofy state over it.  And what so many people fail to understand is that  it’s really so much more that just “getting pregnant”.  You get the sense that your very definition of a woman it irrevocably linked to being able to have your own child.  It’s a shitty deal sometimes when that starts to play out backwards.

I have a baby shower to go to tomorrow and I will once again attempt to avoid the mine field of inevitable questions. I honestly just want it to be over with quickly.

Final shot and blood draw completed.  HSG next.

The headaches from the Lupron are unreal.  Sometimes lasting 24 hours!  All the ibuprofen in the world makes no difference.  Hot flashes come and go.  Not as dramatically as last time thank goodness.  It’s hard with Lupron to tell sometimes.  You know how during summer if you’re outside you are usually getting eaten alive by mosquitoes?  Then when you are finally indoors, you still feel like you’re getting bit??  That’s what these side effects are like.  They start to run in with the normal every day pings and pangs of your body until pretty soon you wonder if your just going nuts.  Or is that just the mood swings?  Hmm.

Friggin Lupron.

Well, tomorrow is the day.  Last Lupron shot.  I finally started really working out and eating right again.  Feel wonderful, really, and I am looking forward to finally finishing up this round of injections.  March 25th is the HSG to check the pipes.  Hope everything turns out ok.

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